
This was the movie and nobody can convince me otherwise

My entry for the KRB mini Bang to accompany In Flesh and Spirit by the lovely @thewightknight
I just needed to see Kylo running his fingers through his hair since Adam does that all the time
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I know people “hate” WIPs and “don’t usually read/comment on them” because “it’s so frustrating waiting for updates” and “what if it never gets finished?”, but let me just say something from the point of view of someone who has written several multi-chaptered fics over the years, including one that has sat unfinished since 2010:
It’s lonely. It’s a huge investment of time and energy into a project that you hope people will like, but most of them will never tell you until it’s finished. It’s easy to get frustrated. To feel like no one cares, or is paying attention. To feel like giving up, or shelving it for later.
Encouragement along the way is like rain on the desert for writers of WIPs. Knowing people are excited about your story, and eager to see what happens next. Your questions and your love can light a fire under a writer, keeping them going when they might otherwise feel like maybe it’s not worth it. Your feedback might even give them a new idea when they are feeling stuck.
So take a risk. What’s the worst that can happen? You get to read something you enjoy, even if it’s unfinished. Balance that against maybe being the reason something does get finished, after all.
I think the response to Kylo Ren says a lot about how people perceive masculinity, and in particular how they expect and want men to behave. Everyone wanted and expected Kylo to be some emotionless, cold and calculating badass, and people were unsettled when they instead got an emotional and deeply unhappy young man who struggles to regulate his emotions.
We associate displays of emotion with weakness and vulnerability, deeming them feminine, and it’s especially taboo for men to be honest and unguarded about their feelings. That is part of why it’s so painful and raw to watch Kylo in his moments of profound turmoil and distress. He only increases his self-loathing in those moments where he’s helpless to contain his emotions, which makes him more and more desperate and frustrated. It creates a vicious cycle.
Hux and Kylo are rivals, and although I love their hatefuck-proneness as much as the next guy, rewatching the movie again (and again, and again) I became obsessed with the thought that their resentment might be pretty fucking recent, and that despite everything, Kylo trusts the shit out of Hux. Emotinal and biased meta under the cut.
Being a good person is a choice. Don’t let people fool you into believing that truly good people never have bad thoughts, are never tempted by the easier path, by the low road, never mess up or act out selfishly. Never believe a person can be good without making a conscious effort.
Every single time you do something good, you’ve made a decision to make the world a little brighter.
Goodness is not an inherent trait, it is a choice. Keep making it! I see you, I’m proud of you, and I’m rooting for you!