I’m having a rough time getting toward the hard part of my fic, and keep getting preoccupied with the desire to please the folks reading it and trying to write what I know I want to write. It’s been kind of discouraging that so many folks that used to comment have stopped now, and I even got a comment last chapter that kind of suggested I needed to move on to different content, so now I am doubting everything and have been stuck staring at the few words I have for c 7, which was the pivotal chapter of the whole fic, and worrying too much that my direction is not entertaining, or too angsty, or not interesting, or just … whatever. I suppose part of my problem is that I’ve never written anything with this much conflict, and I knew it was going to be hard, and I just wanted it to be realistic. I don’t even know. 

Why does writing stuff have to be so hard? 

OK so, opinion poll for folks reading my structural fabrications series : I’m thinking of a big plot advance in C 4 of the sequel, but hesitant that it’s “too soon.” However, I’m curious if to readers it seems more like C 11 in the overall arc. Lemme know if you have a thought!

Planning a new chapter of my current fic, in which Ben and Hux are going to go on their first date. They’ve done everything backwards so far… Ambiguously engaged (?!?!), shared a bed, but never been out. Silly guys. I’m trying to decide where they go / what they do. I’m kind of thinking of a speakeasy style jazz club. 🙂