Tag: about me

Just abuse things

quietsis:

utara-north:

birbanhi:

– “IM SORRY IM SORRY IM SORRY!!”
– “you arent mad at me right? Oh my god you are! IM SORRY”
– “is this my for me? Can I use this? Can I drink this? Can I-”
– “pls help me make this decision for me”
– “do what you please!!!” “What if that makes everyone mad at me”
-studying people intensely because you are afraid you might do something that will make them mad
– Saying something in a tone louder than usual and feeling like this is your last day alive
– low self stem
– feeling mentally and emotionally exhausted after expressing any sort of feeling and crying right after that
– when someone talks or does something in an attitude thats not usual from them and Knowing That It’s Your Fault
– “i dont deserve this why are you doing this for me”
– not knowing the difference between a joke, sarcasm, and passive aggressive speech
– unhealthily clinging to anyone who’s remotely nice to you
– not knowing what to say NEVER
– not knowing how to react to compliments, nice words, genuine care or anything like that and feeling incredibly sick at the thought of someone genuinely loving you
– Crying.
– having to explain every single movement and word you do and say to literally anyone
– being really good at lying and pretending as a survival strategy
– Not living, surviving.
– calculating and overthinking everything you do and say, the time you say it, how you say it, the expression you have when you say it, your voice tone…everything
– getting panic attacks over the tiniest things
– unhealthily clinging to fictional characters and shows
– lack of energy to do anything because you use a lot of effort in every single movement you do
– “im useless”
– when someone compliments you on something and you needing to be Perfect at it because then you dont have any reason to live
– intrusive thoughts
– Perfectionism
– Over sensitiveness
– “It’s my fault.”
– not knowing how to react about criticism
– Isolation
– getting startled when someone touches you
– being hyperaware of your surroundings and at the same time having no time and space perception
– believing everything everyone says
– Feeling like any day is your last day

Wow I… wow.

Is it sad I could check mark almost all of them?

randomslasher:

I get antsy when I haven’t produced content in awhile. I worry I’ll be forgotten. I feel like I have to keep buying my place in fandom with stuff like art and writing. Which makes it hard to produce content because that’s a lot of pressure to put on my creativity muses. So I sit here worrying instead. 

Bleh. 

audreyroseb:

me: i’m a good writer. i know my worth and i’m confident in my skill set and i know i can do this. 

me, five minutes later: what if i’m terrible? what if everyone who has ever read my work and thought it was good was lying? too afraid to tell me the truth? blackmailed by aliens? what if everything i write is terrible and too scattered/forced/hollow what if i don’t know how to make a sentence. where do verbs go. how do u emotion

the two methods of fic writing:

soundofez:

  1. don’t think don’t breathe don’t question where the inspiration came from just wriTE LIKE THE WIND BEFORE IT LEAVES
  2. meticulously plan the plot out until you actually have to write the story and then struggle and suffer

bonus method: no inspiration OR plot just an idea that you want to keep working on but you just stare at the screen blankly with tears running slowly down your face